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4:20 lets rock. yes, i come right from the airport to rehearsal. every single time.
one last thought-
life is in how you live, and how you love.
cultivativating compassion, true insight, and sincerity are the most important attributes i find valuable. if you're a player you're going to be played. if you're a lover you're going to be loved. really.
yeah.. really.
"clean sheets mean alot to a guy who sleeps on the floor" - the descendents
i just made my beautiful bed with 600 thread count sheets made from angels wings and sewn with a golden thread. so they're really comfy. is there anything better than a hot shower, clean linens and slowdive? my legs are falling from beneath me. i'm exhausted and fatigued and i need some sleep. i couldn't rest last night for some reason- i was in bed looking at the ceiling till 6:30am easily.. i hope tonight goes more smoothly.. we're approaching 4am quickly and i gotta call it a night.. i need more dreaming, and much less thinking. reality won't beat me.
thanks for floating a lantern for mike. it means a lot to all of us. i think about him every day. i learned so much from him in his life and have gotten so much more perspective in his passing. mike- i miss you and know i'll see you again. please make sure i'm on the guest list. we're all depending on our friends and divine intervention like water on fields- growing a new inspiration.
read more about the shinnyo-en buddhist order and prayers of peace
time moves forward, not backwards. and so does life.. so lets get on with it.
current mood: blessed
current music: slowdive
The lantern-floating is a time-honored Buddhist rite to comfort the spirits of the deceased. The lanterns are said to ferry spirits from the sea of delusion to the shores of salvation. With the water consolatory service which offers prayers for the victims of wars, natural calamities, famine and disease, the service instills into each of the lanterns our hopes and sincere prayers for the future of the world where people are naturally kind to one another without regard for differences of race, culture, religion, and other such temporal barriers.
oh yeah.. the world cup begins today.
we had a long 5 hour band rehearsal, i'm dripping with sweat and creativity.. and its sweet. rock for light.
30,000 feet above delaware and you'd never know it.
For May 30, 2002
AQUARIUS
(Jan. 20 -Feb. 18)
When that old love comes knocking it will be best if you don't let him/her
in. Of course, if you want to be used, again, you can make up with this
person, but it will only mean more heartbreak for you. Invite friends over
tonight as a buffer against temptation.
weird.
current mood: going on a walk
current music: sensefield- tonight and forever
i have a question:
do you see yourself as someone who loves you for you?
Thursday: foggy early, then partly cloudy later in the day high around 78F.
here's some sun ...
current mood: rosey cheeks, plays games, never cross
current music: mojave 3
i had this whole story written about how great and refreshing my weekend was. how great the evenings were, how awesome it was to sit in the botanical garden and stare at multi-coloured roses, take ferry rides, and fly kites. but of course my fucking computer froze the second i hit post. and i can't remember what i wrote .. but it was brilliance, i swear. anyway, i've alot on my mind and even more at my fingertips. things to be done.. short week. here's a picture of me flying my fucking dragon kite. its kicks ass, and you do, too, boo.
current mood: gotta go. simpsons.
current music: verbal assault- they're talking
i'm off to va beach for sunshine and happiness .. and rainbows everywhere.
pain sounds like rain when you let if fall. let it go.
current mood: beach, here i come into your arms
current music: fiji's national anthem
no wave can erase the vestiges
you made on the shores of my life...
current mood: one more day
current music: bad brains- rock for light
its admirable. we humans.. our hearts are so fragile, but yet we commit them to one another for lifetimes. now where did i put mine?
i *heart* 4:20 . . i shot this on april 20th.. done all with a red candle and a canon s100 digital camera. no photoshop tricks.. no shizzy. candle hearts to light the sky. i've created myself into a corner.
current mood: allergic to easy livin' -- make it hard for me -- hard for me!
current music: modest mouse- this is a long drive for someone with nothing to think about
i just banged out a design in like 2 hours and i'm very pleased with myself.. i engrossed myself in the bob marley and the wailers reissued exodus double pack and next thing i knew- one j later i was done.. well, close to done.. its damn good.. i think.. at least if i think its good i think other people will think its good too. i'm just putting out that general consensus right now so it reaffirms how rad it is when the people that actually are paying for the design check it out for the first time.. "its the shit.. right?" i half state/ask... "yeah, fucking rad.." (wipes forehead).. ok. now i have a 4-5 hour band rehearsal to get through- something completely different, and i'm sure i'll be exhausted by the time i finish with practice.. we have some shit we need to finish and some other things we need to rework, so i'm sure we'll be working hard tonight. i stayed up late last night, doing work on my new website, which is coming along nicely i might add, and will roll out just in time for summer (after memorial day sometime).. and yes, you can start wearing white pants early if you want. i need some robitussin. so i can breathe during practice.. the lung thing's begun again.. every spring i get sick while i'm sleeping. it sneaks up on me.. plus i work too damn hard and puff too much (or maybe just enough but i still get sick) .. anyway, in any event i'm looking forward to being in virginia beach this weekend. so much so that i've been smelling letters lately and thinking of the chesapeake bay shores..
my mind is all over the place.. when i get back from practice i'm sure i'll look at what i just did and want to do something else.. i have to stick with my initial intuitions.. and not over-work myself on one thing. it looks great now.. i'm sure i'll have perspective on it when i return, but then i'm going to get started on some of my own designs for my record label, warmth cause we have alot of parties coming up and we need to get our promotional materials together.. and then i have another client and 4 pieces to work on with that.. so i have some shit to complete before friday.. and i have to pick and pack my records, and put a bag of clothes together.. oh shit.. i have to pick up my laundry.. i'm glad i've typed all this shit to myself, to help me sort my brain out. now where's my cough syrup? i'm having some tea and then i'm off.
current mood: overjoyed/worked
current music: bob marley and the wailers- natural mystic
the scene will look something like this.. nick and i on our way to rehearsal last tuesday...killit™ quits the band
i'm tired.. going to bed. lots on my mind. too much to write. too much to think, and too much to do. so what to do about it? not a thing to do but to breathe. i'm sleeping on it. morning will bring perspective and i'll be more of an eclectic. and not... rejected.
current mood: imbued with the essence of 1000 empty rainbows
current music: hope sandoval- drop
0M3
whoever quoted robert frost in my guestbook- props.. thats the way today is going. struggling against the current of everything. the gravity is sometimes overwhelming, and sometimes i mean as >many< times this day.. i'm not feeling too relaxed about anything, to say the least.. and would gladly love to be in complete denial of my reality. its hard being stretched so thin and not having anyone around for support.. and my friends, well they can only help so much. i need some me time.. i'm going skating... its fuckin' freezing out but i need to roll it out.
current mood: moody
current music: the ocean blue- marigolds
And were an epitaph to be my story
I'd have a short one ready for my own.
I would have written of me on my stone:
I had a lover's quarrel with the world.
i found time to actually do some work.. updated some parts of various websites of mine and worked on some record cover design business .. this week i'm going to be up to my ears in the creative liquid .. i hope i remember how to breathe that stuff. the primordial flavor. . the stuff i don't have to think about.. i've been rather creative lately.. i just got off playing guitar for 2 hours.. finished a tune i've been screwing around with forever. its finally arranged.. so add another one to the pile. perhaps we'll get to rehearse it this week. that is if we have time to do anything. we're supposed to record in august.. a 5-6 song ep.. we, of course, will have to totally kick the shit out of everything currently available in the rock section before we even step into the studio and take the mic.. being careful not to scuff up my brand new nike's..
so whatcha doing? its 2:10 am on a sunday evening. whatever happened to comedy central's late night fun shit? tv funhouse and what not? i just have to say that home movies on adult swim (cartoon network) is the funniest shit .. and props to the one hour of simpsons tonight. it was of course in fox's best interest to not fuck with me.. thank god they're killing ally mcbeal off. fucking bitch.
i'm way too into t.v. .. its kinda amazing i get a fuckin' thing done. working on the new site.. maybe i'll put it online next week. i'm still trying to figure out some shit before i go live with the new one.. i'll put the first one up for a week. that one was funny as shit.. wait.. i think you can check it out.. see how much i've come along in a year? yeah.. so things CAN get better.. and will.. its cyclical. next year i'll be laughing at this pile of shit i've put some time into right now.. what you're reading.. haha. anyway. get a good laugh and get over it. love joel
joeltjordan.com issue#3 april 2001
7353R / RESET
current mood: tired.. my fingers are cold
current music: slowdive- just for a day (over and over)
sundays are made for shit like this.. sitting on the couch, having tea, and watching usa vs. netherlands soccer pre-world cup action.. i have 3 joints and alot of time on my hands today.. so i'm doing a little work, watching some tv, and just made myself a grilled cheese sandwich with grape jelly on the side.. mmm! yeah, i must be ripped. anyway- its super chill here today and i'm looking forward to this full hour of simpsons tonight.. there is a point to life. i was planning on taking a walk, but now i'm just too fuckin' lazy.. i'm going to work on this here website (the next edition) and some other shit i've neglected.. this week shall be busy.. and i am glad i'm ending it on a super mellow note. thai food is on my mind, and candy of some sorts. did i mention i dig sundays? yeah.. i do..
there's room on the couch if you want to come over.
current mood: giddy, chill.
current music: rolling machine
he may not come when you want him, but he'll be there right on time...
god's been good to me.
current mood: <3
current music: dottie peoples- an on-time god.
i woke up late in the afternoon, dehydrated, beaten up.. i did it to myself again- hoegaarden is just too good of a beer not to have 3 or 4 or.. or whatever.. i was out late last night, and now i'm hurting.. i'm slowly sliding out of this cycle of weekend abuse.. i mean, my saturday is my real day to relax i guess.. and sitting around watching tv and twisting joints is cool with me. so .. i just realized how much of a space cadet i am today - i walked to the store, got all this shit, came home and then realized i didn't get what i went there for in the first place. motrin.. so i turned around and just walked out again and then zoned out and looked at the sky down the slope towards manhattan.. i was staring at the sickening yellow color floating amongst the vapor of the low clouds, and took it all in.. for like 5 minutes.. the rooftops of houses were glowing with a shiny gold color- the metal reflecting the sunlight and bouncing it all down towards the street.. i'm safely back inside right now.. a bit achey and lonely.. i'll spend my evening on the couch where i belong. the sun is setting later and later.. thank god spring is here.
current mood: yawnnnnnn
current music: xanadu
band practice was good last night. everyone can stay in my band for one more week. anyway, got done late, had a late dinner with nick at planet thai (fuckin' rocking the mock duck) .. was rad as usual.. umm.. took a nice breezy car ride home and the air was wonderful on my face, as we sped along the bqe in the back of a dope black lincoln.. so, i stayed up kinda late reading huckleberry finn (i love anything by mark twain and re-read alot of his works from time to time).. so i'm halfway through it already, and i ended up falling asleep at 3:30 or something .. its hard to read on the pot, fyi. anyway, today i have been working along as usual, took a great nice long shower, and i'm getting ready to go get a massage.. fridays are for fun, right? anyway- it hasn't been too fun since i've been working all morning, but i'm going to go eat some lunch, watch some tv, puff tuff and get on a train towards backrub land. oh.. and i have to spin tonight at open air then bar 4.. fun shit. so, won't you come see me? new dates added to my dj schedule, as if you give a shit. anyway- sign my fuckin' guestbook. i get no love whatsoever. wtf? anyway, its nice out.. in between rain and sunshine and hazy and 75º.. ideal weather if you ask me. i should've gone skating last night when the low pressure came in and it was all billowy and windy and neat outside.. its like that scene from something wicked this way comes by ray bradbury.. when the storm is picking up.. you feel the wind come in low by your legs, and the next thing you know its pouring.. but that moment before the rain.. those are my favorite moments. thats when i want to get married. ok. now off to the couch. kids in the hall isn't going to appreciate itself! also- who's up for the spongebob house party tonight? someone's taping it for me i hope?
current mood: hazy crazy lazy
current music: lovesky- "humongous battle breaks"
i lost my astronaut application...
the jerk, my favorite movie of all time (next to the great muppet caper) is on once again, this time on encore, so it's got all the cursing and none of the funny taken out.. all that aside, it has the sweetest song in it where steve martin and burnadette peters are walking on the beach and he has his little ukulele and they're singing.. the most endearing song ever. i will play this sometime.. soon. just for you.
G Dm C Cm
I know you belong to somebody new
G D G D
but tonight, you belong to me.
G Dm C Cm
Although we're apart, you're a part of my heart
G D G D
but tonight, you belong to me.
Cm
Way down by the street how sweet it would seem
G F# Dm A D
once more, just to dream in the moonlight, my honey ..
G (etc.)
I know with the dawn that you will be gone
but tonight you belong to me, just little ol' me.
(solo) same pattern as verses...G Dm C Cm G D G
Cm G
The time the place will soon show its face
C D
one day, oohh one day, my honey..
G Dm C Cm
I know you belong to somebody new
G D C (walk down bass line) G
but tonight you belong to me.
just lil ol' me..
Tonight You Belong to Me
Patience and Prudence - Peaked #4 on October 6,1956 #34 for 1956
Lawrence Welk w/the Lennon Sisters - Peaked #15 on November 3,1956
Karen Chandler & Jimmy Wakely - Peaked @ #49 on November 3,1956
i checked the mail, opened the letter, and now my room smells like you... heaven.
so its actually turned out to be a somewhat acceptable day.. even though small annoyances keep popping up. i can hear spongebob in the background, and i'm cooking pasta for dinner and making garlic bread.. no shit. and i'm juggling all my work and taking time to type in this so i don't go insane. i went on a short walk to drop my laundry off, skate a bit, and mail some letters (check your mailbox) ... have to skate more later tonight when i have nothing to do .. tomorrow is supposed to be the shit *75ish and sunny* so i gotta try and get my shit done now so i can take tomorrow to relax and enjoy the sunshine.. take a walk up the hill, skate down.. you know how gravity works..
so this morning was fuckin' weird.. i woke up at 6:30am and i couldn't tell if it was 6:30 at night or 6:30 in the morning, since the sunlight looks exactly the same coming through my window at either times in the day.. i literally had to get up and look out the window to make sure i didn't sleep the day away.. it was a strange feeling. my dreams were so long and detailed last night i assumed it HAD to be evening, and not morning.. so it was creepy.. and after i confirmed the time i went back to sleep till noon.. i hate strange sleep anomalies such as this one.. it was all interesting how it came together- sleepy, slightly hung over, and my dream was super long.. and i just happened to wake up at the right moment that would fool my perceptions.. strange. so my watch is beeping.. i think my garlic bread is done. are you coming over?
i was caught in that in-between moment sleep - not yet realizing its a new day and not remembering yesterday.
current mood: strange
current music: astrud gilberto
sitting at home.. tea's to my left.. i'm waiting for it to cool down.. cool it now, you got to slow it down, ooo watch out you're gonna lose control.. yeah.. so i'm a bit buzzed, lonely and sitting in the dark waiting for tea to cool down. its supposed to be super windy tomorrow.. whatever.. as long as it doesn't rain. i had a good night.. worked alot today, accomplished alot and even managed to shave and make myself look halfway presentable to the general public. rode the train and listened to verbal assault today.. it was rather appropriate.. all the way to rehearsal, which was pretty great and then we all went (without matt- since he's a baby) to the tennis show at luna lounge.. they fucking rocked of course.. very impressive set and really blew me away with some new tunes i can't wait to hear recorded properly. had some champagne, listened to some of my friend chaka's new music - is super good (like stones/bowie/t-rex/kiss) and is super great party music.. i loved it.. so nick and i grabbed some burritos, which weren't all that, from san loco and jumped in a cab back to bk.. here i am.. the daily show plays in the background and the screen burns my already fragile eyes. i'm going to finish my tea and get to bed before i feel any worse. my allergies are killing me.. someone shoot me some eyedrops..
current mood: kinda spacey and tired
current music: verbal assault- immersion
this day.. this world surprised me today. i spoke too soon.. thats how i get when i stay up too late and get too whistful. i shouldn't write then.. or whatever.. "i feel that it would be more beneficial" if i wait for the sunlight to hit me in the morning.. and thats what happened. thank god.. if i didn't see the sun i was going to stay in bed all day.. so this was a nice surprise.. and 60º is acceptable.. i'll take that. so, i'm in a better mood needless to say. got a lot of work done, have a short rehearsal (2 hours) tonight, and then a rock show at luna lounge at 9:30.. tennis. should be great, if you're in manhattan it's on ludlow between stanton and houston. i'll see you there.
current mood: better
current music: sunny day real estate- circles
oh yeah, save internet radio- sign this petition, please:
internet radio petition
i'm going to stay up all night..
writing all the thank-you notes
i never got to write.
ahem.
its 3:40am and i've just finished my day.. whoever said i don't work hard isn't the one that has to rub my back.. and hear me complain all the time. anyway, i'm going to wake up to another dreary day. i'll sleep in late, if thats even possible anymore. it used to be so easy to lie in bed and look out the window and not be so affected by the rain and the cold.. but when i'm already feeling weak and tired and worn out and realizing my breathe easy tea addiction is something to be reckoned with, i get a little down... and must get up. so maybe i'll fall asleep and dream of sitting in the sun. instead of in the dark.. and riding in the rain. its too slippery - i'll slide and be slick. so wake me up when you're at the foot of my bed. and not just in my head.
current mood: too many too soon to count
current music: hope sandoval
I never asked for the truth, but you owe that to me... today was mothers day.. and rainy and cold here in my brooklyn apartment. 5 rooms of gloom. woke up around 2:30 after a much needed extended rest.. i woke up horizontally across my bed again (thank god its so big) pillows on the floor.. fell asleep around 6am last night since i was up being creative.. i was in a mood to do things i think, and i have to start some big projects this week, so i was getting the creative part of my brain a little greased up and ready to go... now i'll just slip into this week announced and hopefully it'll be friday before i know it. i'm looking forward to memorial day weekend and being in va beach.. hoping the weather is absolutely positively lovely then.. since it's going to be so shitty here for the next 4 days.. like living on venus or something.. cloudy and rainy (but no poisonous gas, thankfully) and not as nice as i would suspect may to normally be.. 83º in april, and we get the rain in may.. ok.. hmm. anyway, did alot of productive things today with my time. got up, made my bed, put the kettle on and set myself up for a lovely green tea bath. it was just what i needed.. soaked for a good 30 minutes and then while i dripped dry i cleaned my bathroom a bit.. then got the brilliant idea to organize my closet (i have a total of >2< in this apt. and they're both about one and a half feet deep. no shit..) - this is a project i got into my head a few days ago since i usually keep a suitcase packed in my closet and live out of it until i run out of clothes and do a wash- but i went through my closet and my chest of drawers today and organized everything so i remembered i had all this other shit i haven't worn in forever and basically spent a few hours folding stuff and what not. its all sorted now.. and i'm at an alarmingly low level on ankle socks. where the hell do these things go? adidas should just up and sponsor me since i go through like 2 packs of socks a month it seems.. or maybe i just put them all somewhere and they're not around anymore. i know i left a good amount of stuff at my folks house.. so we'll see .. umm, never got around to vacuuming, instead i completed some work for this club i design for in tokyo called the womb.. they're pretty cool clients and never give me any shit- they seem to really like my work.. i mean, apparently.. they could hire some guy or gal in japan just as easily.. whatever. i'm happy with the gig. so got that done, made myself a veggie burger and plopped down to watch 4 hours of tv straight.. simpsons, six feet under, and adult swim.. now i can sleep.. but of course i can't cause it's only 11:46 and i'm wide awake. i'll go smoke myself stupid and crawl into bed and look out the window. it sucks knowing you're going to wake up to rain as well.. maybe it'll surprise the shit out of me (the world) but it'll probably do exactly what i expect it to. oh yeah, check this out: today on the news "new nuclear threats find out if YOU are in one of the hot spots" .. what the fuck? i didn't watch the news... i watched the spongebob. anyway, i think this entry was a little lack luster, like the rest of my day, but at least i'm organized through and through.. now i just need to get some new sneakers to skate in and i'm all set for the week.. 2 rehearsals to look forward to. rock=play=fun. i just sat and played my telecaster on my couch for 2 hours straight.. worked out a song that we put to rest cause it didn't go anywhere.. figured out the missing piece and re-arranged the whole thing. now it kicks ass .. i swear.. umm. yeah. so i'm going to go sit on my couch again and wait for tomorrow. in 10 minutes.
current mood: sunday rocks
current music: guided by voices- game of pricks
Chords
A - x02220 C#m - x46654
Amaj7 - x02120 D - xx0232
Bm - x24432 F#m - 244222
I've waited too long to have you
Hide in the back of me
I've cheated so long I wonder
How you keep track of me
You could never be strong
You can only be free
And I never asked for the truth
But you owe that to me
I've entered the game of pricks
With knives in the back of me
Can't call you or on you no more
When they're attacking me
I'll climb up on the house
Weep to water the trees
And when you come calling me down
I'll put on my disease
You could never be strong
You can only be free
And I never asked for the truth
but you owe that to me
just finished watching the professional. i love that movie... drinking vitamin water, chilling with the isms and sitting at the macintosh.. stayed up late and began messing around. here's what i came up with... from a photo of the lighting fixture above the first stall in the men's bathroom at laguardia airport .. terminal c. going to sleep.. sunday.. yes..
"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you."
-Winnie The Pooh
current mood: love
current music: neil halstead- sleeping on roads
look at my nephew, evan matthew. a week into his lifetime settling in to his comfy crib, rocking it with mr. mouse. and he has fly pajamas.
current mood: dreamy
current music: the cure- in between days
listen to this hilarious midi file of in between days
joeltima™ v1.3
you're standing in a dimly lit room. there is a bed to your left, a plant to your right, beyond that you can't see much but the desk in front of you. a bell in the distance chimes 2:30am. there are 3 messages in your email inbox, 2 voicemails on your telephone machine to be listened to, and one tired torn up person sitting in your chair.
/> pick up chair and hit the person
you cannot pick up the chair. someone is sitting in it.
/> turn around and walk outside
stick to this room first.
/> jump out the window
the windows are locked and bolted from the outside.
/> eat the person in the chair
you cannot eat the person.
/> eat the chair
the chair doesn't look like it wants to be eaten.
/> look around
you're standing in a dimly lit room. there's a person slumped over the computer in front of you, which is making a humming sound (the computer, the person is snoring) and there is a smell of stinky stank coming from a smoking pipe on the glass coffee table directly behind you.
/> pick up the pipe
you have to turn around first.
/> shit
there's no toilet here, and i don't think you should do this in your room.
/> turn around
you're facing west. there is a television playing an infommercial on your left, beyond that a window overlooking a garden, and there is a glass coffee table with a smoking pipe directly in front of you.
/> smoke the pipe
you can't reach it, stretch.
/> walk towards the table
you are standing directly in front of the glass coffee table.
/> smoke the pipe
the pipe is now out. you don't have any matches.
/> fuck!
theres noone here but you.
/> eat the pipe
you cannot eat glass.
/> smash the table.
your conscience will not allow it. its a lovely table.
/> get some matches
from where? your magic pocket?
/> talk to the tv
the tv responds with "finally a two in one banana flattener/yogurt squirter ... " and trails off.
/> smoke the tv
the tv cannot be smoked.
/> look up
there is a blank white ceiling looking at you.
/> ask it for matches
the ceiling doesn't have any matches.
/> look for matches
there are no matches in this room. except my ass and ... nevermind
/> look around
there is a glass coffee table directly in front of you with a partially smoked pipe containing some herbs and spices from a pirate ship. there is a kitchen to your right, a ceiling above you, a bedroom behind you and windows to your left, overlooking a catfight.
/> turn towards the kitchen
you are now facing north into the kitchen. smells like there's been a party.
/> walk into the kitchen
you are surrounded by cabinets and the refrigerator is staring at you.
/> open the cabinets and look for matches.
no matches
/> look in the drawers
you found a folder containing 1000 menus of chinese restaurants (many are duplicates) and some incense and an old cigarette lighter that reads "ft. myers florida" on it.
/> pick up the lighter and go to the coffee table
you are holding the lighter and standing directly in front of the coffee table.
/> use the lighter on the pipe
the lighter doesn't work.
/> motherfucker!
i don't think the lighter wants to do that.
/> end
ok player, but quitters never win.
ctrl-q
current mood: raised on the text-based video game
current music: beeeep beeeep bloop bloop
my schedule is strange.. went to bed at 4am last night after doing some work on the warmth™ site (our house label) and got up at like 9:30.. i guess the fedex lady helped me out of bed by leaning on my fuckin' buzzer, but hey- i'm up.. i'm probably going to fall down after rehearsal tonight. we're going from 7pm-midnight.. and the 5 hours of drinking .. just kidding.. well, partially. anyway, its fuckin' nice as shit out and i have holes in my sneakers. so i'm going to go make my ollie holes bigger on my canvas rod lavers and hopefully my foot won't bleed as a result.. i'm wearing matching socks and gloves today (none) .. so i gotta get out and enjoy some of this sunlight .. taking a walk up the hill, then the bank... then skating all the way down the hill.. thats the fun part. the walking sucks.. i mean, its just a slope up to the park, but if you go down the right streets you get going super fuckin' fast.. i think i wrote fuckin' too many times in this post.. but whatever. this is my turn to speak. allergy season is in effect. i feel it in my lungs.. gotta slow down on the j weed tip too and pay attention to my business .. now.. i gotta rock and roll.. enough of that, on with the whores!
current mood: mighty x2
current music: esthero- superheroes
Superheroes
Stay awhile longer sweet tongue of fur and feather
There is a white breast
Waiting for you here...
Between the superheroes - and the electric blanket is warm
I could be sweet
I could be young, and fresh
If I weren't so old and used
and wet and wet, I am wet
I try not to ruin the moment
Tell me all your secrets and your torments
You're delicious, you're delicious...
Send me on a quest for lullabies - and more
What would it take for you to see
What I have got?
I've got more than you know
Open your eyes, I cannot be - what I am not
I'm not what I used to be, I'm not what
I'm not what I used to be, and I
I don't know myself - from anybody else
I'm not what I used to be, I'm not what
I'm not what I used to be, and I
You don't know what you have done
My frame is here but the mind is gone - gone away
So stay awhile longer sweet tongue of fur and feather
Don't cut the white breast
I've been waiting for you here
I'm not who I used to be
Bigger and better and faster and wetter
And bigger and better and faster and better
so tired.. its only 1am but i've had a full full day.. woke up at about 8:30 am, after going to sleep around 3 last night, a bit under the weather from drinking all day yesterday at the park and sitting in the sun (it tires you out!) got in the shower, woke up a bit and hopped a train to return dre to her friends in the city to go back to va.. i had a super duper weekend, btw.. very relaxing and not run of the mill at all. between the visit, the picnic and today its been a nice time. i've reconnected with corona's over the past couple days and i'm feelin' fine right now.. so back to my story.. umm. so i went over to patt and alexis' apartment and hung out with them all day- damon came over and we went and got brunch at veg-city diner and rocked some vegi breakfast.. was digging it, of course, and returned to their apartment where i learned how to play backgammon (so fun!) i've always had a fascination with the game, but never thought i could bother to learn it.. its strangely addictive.. so i won 3 out of 4 games today. they take awhile to play, so i spent a good part of the day sitting in the sun, smoking bowls and drinking margaritas. i had a super good time.. we had some split pea soup and watched some tv, played some game cube and then jason came over and joined us.. then we went over to williamsburg around 8:15ish to help our friend michael move into his new apartment from north carolina (well, we helped with the last 20 feet or so).. met some cool cats tonight and went and got some beers at union pool and then some late food at planet thai.. jason and i grabbed a car back to park slope.. so, now i'm sitting alone, in the dark, in my room at 1:09 am thinking about my week ahead of me and how great it is to have such nice friends to spend time with. . looking forward to playing music this week for hours on end (hopefully some marathon rehearsals this week 5+ hours a night) ... things are shaping up. its been a weird and long day. i'm not accustomed to 8:30-1:30am days.. they're more like 11am-4am days.. so i'm going to be ahead of schedule all week.. maybe i'll do something productive, like work.. yeah. remind me of that! i'm too sleepy to complain anymore.. i'll do the rest later.
current mood: where did i leave my head
current music: the new favourites®
cinco de mayo, and yes the time is correct.. i got up at 8:45 to get my drinking started early. i couldn't sleep anymore and am on my way to the city to go return dre to the powers that be. fun fun. we had a picnic yesterday and it was so much fun.. over 30 friends conveined in prospect park and we goofed off, ate, puffed tuff, kicked some soccer balls around and had a great time.. will post some pictures here later! in the meantime, i'm going to go get some brunch.. with cuervo on the side.
current mood: tired, happy, allergic
current music: brian eno
so whats on the agenda.. i'm smoking something called "blueberry" and drinking a sapporo and watching the simpsons and the sun is setting .. and the birds are chirping... and its friday. i'm loving this.. sun is setting..
don't worry honey, we can always go down to the pound and get you a new jazzman..
where'd this week go? its friday.. i woke up at 10am believe it or not.. groan.. but it looked so damn nice out i decided to get up, clean my fuckin' apartment (i just got done dusting and i'm about to wet swiffer the kitchen and bathroom) and i just took a break to say hello here.. its damn nice out. i'm going to get some skating in today. i need new shoes, i have an ollie hole that is all tearing up my shoes and shit.. but whatever.. i got some stuff coming my way thanks to my friend kristen and her great taste from ccs.com .. online skateshop. i have to continue jamming in the name of the lord.. go bob go. what is it about bob marley and fridays? and nice cups of tea and i think i might even take a bath.. before i go shopping (yes thats right) it looks like a domestic day for me.. i'm going to the ghetto supermarket near my house cause the veggie burgers there are cheaper than d'agostino's rip off palace.. anyway, enough of my market reports (haha) i'm just letting you know that its may, so start acting like it.. oh yeah, check out this jackass .. and i thought i did some dumb shit sometimes. but i'm 10 years older, and 10 years wiser.. or something. either way, i still skateboard and pick my nose in secrecy.
so.. a bath is imminent, maybe after i go shopping i'll even cook myself some lunch.. how domestic of me. i mean, i'm at home every day pretty much as it is except when i go out for meetings, so its not that crazy.. but the freak in me wants to get out.. i will be a freak until the day until the dawn..
current mood: yeah yeah! it's freaky friday!
current music: adina "freak with me" b/w uberzone "freaks believe in beats"
Let me lay it on the line
I got a little freakiness inside
And you know that the man has got to deal with it
I don't care what they say
I'm not about to pay nobody's way
'Cause it's all about the dog in me
Mm-hmm
Chorus 1:
I want to freak in the morning
a freak in the evening
just like me
I need a roughneck nigga that can satisfy me
just for me
If you are that kind of man
cuz I'm that kind of girl
I got a freaky secret, everybody sing
'Cause we don't give a damn about a thing
Chorus 2:
'Cause I will be a freak until the day, until the dawn
And we can [pump, pump] all through the night
till the early morn
Come on and I will take you around the 'hood
on a gangsta lean
'Cause we can [pump, pump] any time of day
it's all good for me
Boy, you're moving kind of slow
You got to keep it up, now there you go
There's just one thing that a man must do
Mm-hmm
I'm packing all the flavor you need
I got you shook up on your knees
'Cause it's all about the dog in me
(Chorus 1)
One to the two, to the two, to the three
Adina, do you want to get freaky with me?
(Repeat until the end)
(Chorus 2)
nothing to write.. too much to think about.. its raining here. i'm looking forward to the weekend. oh joel, did you know, way back in december, that your year would be like this? so.. fucking .. weird .. shitty to the max, awesome to 10, and never short on activities or anxieties? whatever. my hair was shorter.
current mood: getting rained on
current music: tennis- 7"
it was 10am when i woke up in a frazzle. thinking i had slept too late and wondering if it was raining out i ran towards the window.. sunny and warm. super. allegra-d today for sure. i'm sitting here sipping my tea and its not even 10:45 yet.. so this is what the mornings like, huh? for all of you with company jobs- sorry. i like my schedule and will deviate from it for only a little while. i even got in bed before 3 last night, and fell asleep without the aid of harold budd or brian eno or this mortal coil. anyway, time to attack this day. i have meetings in manhattan and deals to be done. in the meantime here's a shot from some bar i found myself in, drinking alone again.. (looks off into the distance).. i know you're out there somewhere.. somewhere.. somewhere..
current mood: moody, not sad
current music: moody blues
