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AQUARIUS:
>>Monday, December 31
You know you take everyone for granted, and you want to reform that practice. Imagining the absence of these key players will begin to give you a clue of their precious worth. Don't assume people know how you feel: Express your affection early and often in the new year. Begin before midnight with admonitions of safety. Seek joy in simplicity.
if i haven't said it enough.. i love you dearly. for real.
current mood: achey
current music: beach boys- god only knows
jason and i are off to new mexico from wednesday to monday.. to be with mike, to be with maria, and their daughter ella maria. we love them terribly and i want to be as helpful and hopeful as possible. if you read this, please pray and hope for him.. its all we have right now to hold onto. i don't want this year to begin with heartbreak. wish well, wish often. got my mobile phone replaced finally.. you can call me now.
current mood: hoping praying
current music: saves the day- nightengales
our best buddy mike fell into a deep coma after a number of seizures at his new home in new mexico. please pray for him. he just woke up after a number of days.. which is better news than we have hoped for over the past day.. but by no means out of the woods. words can't express how concerned and an emotional we are right now. everyone have a happy new year. please hope for the best and know that you're very important to us..
lovejoel
off to va beach to try and relax. back in nyc in a week. i'm still sick.. cough cough.
current mood: hopeful
current music: none
http://iam.punkasfuck.org/~joelt/epxmas/
thats what i did christmas eve.. anyway. . i'm sick. i can't breathe easily.. its shitty. i took an armomatic salt bath.. that worked a little.. and i napped a little.. i'm worn out for real.. i think my body is finally letting me be sick since i've slowed down the last day or so. its all catching up with me and kicking my ass. i hope i can shake this before new years eve so i can be in the best shape to be twisted. yeah.. i am supposed to go to d.c. tomorrow. to hang out and go do some interesting things, but the way i feel now at 1:09 am is not so great.. and i think it'll get worse before it gets better.. its definitely a respiratory thing that i'll deal with for a couple days before breaking down and running for a z-pack at dr. antibiotic's.
if i don't feel better shortly i will go to bed. i'm waiting for this highly effective cocktail of robitussin, claritin d, advil, salt water garglin', chloreseptic and breathe easy tea to kick in. wish me luck.
current mood: coughy/achey/stuffyhead/fever/27/m/delaware Those times I waited for you seem so long ago Goodbye to you Could I have loved someone like the one I see in you Goodbye to you 'Cause baby it's over now Goodbye to you Now, could I have loved someone like the one I see in you Goodbye to you Goodbye baby exactly.. <3 joelt i said goodbye to you tonight- ©2001 jtj. christmas night. this means you. merry sexmas! santa clause came in the middle of the night.. strange i didn't run into him since i got in at 3:30.. but judging from the hangover i have i doubt i would've noticed him anyway.. i woke up with the worst dehydration today.. lovely.. so now i feel like i'm dreaming and i just had breakfast with the folks.. we're all lazy about christmas.. we get around to the gift thing at the end of the day.. i am thinking about the couch and my eye pillow right now, and it seems like something i should consider.... you can tell its christmas when better off dead is in heavy rotation.. i'm going to go have another cup of coffee (i normally don't drink it.. but somethings telling me today is the day) i hope everyone out there is having a wonderful day.. i'm going to eat some motrin and sit around until i go to my brother in law's folks house around 5 and hang with the extended extended family.. i gotta stay away from the alcohol for a few days.. we (12 of us) got super drunk at singapore vegetarian in philly last night and raised hell. this man-hating womyn stood up and apparently had "too much" of our loud talking which included some "shits" and "dirty" language.. she obviously was sitting there like "if you're not going to say something i will" and shit.. cause she stood up, said this shit to all of us.. we all half-apologized and immediately got back to business .. and they left a second later.. like that proved something.. and we were the only ones left in the restaurant. whatever. i can't believe people in this day and age can get offended by language.. i was like "sugar, they're just words.. now take a fucking walk" haha current mood: holly jolly oh yeah.. for a run-down of the evenings events check out jason's journal : http://earthprogram.com/jason http://www.bol.ucla.edu/~rahjr79/ninja.htm i'm high now. i'm at my sisters house in delaware..got here last night and did nothing today but try and get my cell phone replaced.. no luck.. sprint sucks - such shitty fones.. i'd have to wait a week to get mine, the v8160 which i fucking adore, but i got it in va and thats where i'll have to get it replaced. they have the fones there for sure.. in plentitude.. so anyway, jason and i just baked up and rolled around in my sister and her husband's new expedition.. i felt like i was literally commanding the fucking road.. awesome drive.. anyway, got in around 6ish and my parents arrived a little later and we had dinner together.. nice.. wish you could see her house- its awesome.. straight outta better homes and gardens and shit. all lovely. i'll take some photos. jason and i have been playing pool, ping pong and ps2.. we're bored.. i want sneak out like i'm in high school.. they're all in bed.. what shall i do? mmmm.. yeah.. i just went and got a beer instead.. current mood: smiley.. laughing quietly i'm at jasons crib waiting for my driver to pick me up to go to my gig at halcyon.. i'm too stoned.. so i thought i would scribble in this thing for a second.. my horoscopes have been hauntingly accurate lately.. i wonder if this coming year is, indeed, my year.. if the world doesn't explode on jan 1st that is.. lets all try and make it to the year of aquarius.. the global shift in consciousness has already begun.. just takes genuine hearts and idealism to get it spun in the right direction. positive flow.. i'm going to go spin records to start. and we'll take it from there. see you later. i'm not done yet. beep beep. current mood: ready to rock i'm like hot sauce. spicy. very very spicy. 5 minutes to showtime. what is it? 4:15? current mood: ? ad infinitum i woke up today after sleeping really strangely.. unrested, i began to design.. and as the joy of remembering that i make my living being creative, i returned to life and i woke up.. now i'm tired again.. at least i'm not lifting anything. i'm going to smoke this shit and watch this shit and sit on this shit and do this shit. ok? yeah. current mood: achey what's black and blue, cut and sore all over? me.. i've been moving stuff from my studio to my home and what not for the last 14 hours.. its 2:10am and jason and i just walked in.. i'm absolutely strained.. i need a bath. and more .. i haven't been this tired or physically over exerted in so long.. probably since i moved out of my loft last year.. i am not one for labour. never have been. i prefer to click and make bubbling sounds. i am so fucking tired i can't even keep my chin up. love joel current mood: (looks off into the distance) oh yeah, i have like fucking 12 hours of design work (my actual job) to do now. wee. go do the voodoo that you do so well. current mood: partied out - too tired to shout You need the guidance of the best role model in your midst right now. A new direction is nigh. i hope so. i don't need anyone but me. and the only thing i have to do is enjoy my life. its not something i should be stressed about. things are good. if i ever think my career is my life i should be slapped and take off to thailand for a couple weeks of 75 cent a day living. hmmm.. my thoughts are cooking. 2:30am. stoned and alone. i'll see you around. i'm happy as shit. sunshine coming tomorrow? send me an angel current mood: crosseyed drink your school. stay in drugs. don't go to milk. high and mighty.. spent the day with jason, was lovely getting stupid chores done and jason compiled our sampler for our new music to be released/available for licensing for the winter/spring to take to france with us next month for the midem2002 conference in cannes.. i am blurry right now.. had 2 cups of tea and many many bowls of the other stuff.. and now i'm ready to sleep sleep sleep.. but i am dreading my maid rapping on my door at 10:30 am.. i was like ok.. "hasta mañana".. as in tomorrow.. not tomorrow morning.. despues de once es bien.. i'm spicy these days.. mmm.. went to the grand opening gala of groovejet tonight (after i played there LAST tuesday hehehe) it was pretty cool- lots of fashion types.. kissing on both sides of the cheeks and i mean ass cheeks included.. had a scotch and hung out with my friends kate and lynette.. they're groovy.. jason was there too, representing the jordans to the fullest. kate asked me some questions as the art director of this club, about the branding of groovejet and design stuff for metrochannel tv (nyc) as they were covering the opening for kate's new program on the dance scene .. and that was pretty cool- i was like a deer in headlights.. i walked into the club and they immediately had me sit down to do this interview.. big ass bright light and it was hot as shit already in there.. and i was not ready mentally, and was stumbling over my words and brain until i got in the swing of it a bit after 3 minutes of mumbling and laughing at myself and finally loosened up and said some halfway decent shit. so keep your eyes out for that. i don't know when its airing, but i'm sure i'll hear all about it. i always think i'm meant to be a star until they just pop that fucking light on you. and then its all over for me.. haha. i need to get into it.. jason and i are smart asses on camera.. but solo i'm like a total shit. anyway. they're airing that movie i was in, better living through circuitry, on showtime.. so check your listings for some funny ass retrorave memories. see you in bed.. zzz. dream about good things, and i'll try the same. current mood: spicy i feel so much better.. i just removed all my clothes and took a long shower at 3:30am.. and i am thinking of burning the ones i was wearing.. i just spent 3 hours at cbgb waiting to see this amazing band that my brother, jason, is really trying to sign right now.. they're great.. for real.. i'd say the name but i don't want it to get out yet.. :) anyway, i'm now clean and it smells like jah's love in here. the lambs bread.. it's been raining all day in nyc and its a strange change of pace.. i've felt like its europe or something.. reminded me of being in switzerland around this time of the year about 5 years ago and dealing with the same weather.. and we had a nice slow day.. a nice big joint, a slow brunch at dizzy's watching it drizzle.. a nice ride over to our recording studio and then up to our rehearsal space to write and arrange vocals to some of our songs.. killit™ songs that is.. anyway, jason, matt (my other guitarist/vocalist) and i all sat in the rehearsal space for a few hours working out tunes.. we got a great deal done.. and i showed matt some things i had already arranged and he showed me some of his stuff.. and we're really nailing it.. i feel like we're going to accomplish alot with this band. our heads are all in the right place, at least.. and then we went and sat in a cafe and looked at girls.. i got a $1 discount from the waitress for being loud and obnoxious.. i couldn't tell if she was being a bitch or not.. i was like, "sorry" and she said, "don't be... i like it" and i was thinking .. like it? like it as in like me? am i "it"? anyway.. i was puzzled by that one.. so we scribbled and drank soy mochas and looked askance at everyone.. and then came back to my crib and removed the god awful shelving that has been haunting my second bedroom since i moved in this place.. like terrible california closet modular shit that i was perplexed over.. apparently all it took was a joint, a power drill (cordless) and 3 kids to carry it all downstairs.. now there is enough room to put all my record collection in there, assorted guitars, a nice afghan rug, a couple ladies and the bulk of our recording studio.. we're moving all the gear over here, so i'll have within the week the whole recording studio set up in my extra bedroom.. and somehow jason managed to fit all my hanging clothes in the tiniest closet.. and the only one i have in my house.. i was surprised.. so we went to zen palate for dinner, upstairs.. treating ourselves right to the delecacies only allowed those that are willing to pay slightly more for better veggie food. it was the bomb.. jason cut himself today dropping something on his thumb, and i managed to break a glass at dinner and get little bits of glass everywhere (and in my hand).. luckily i paused after i did it and didn't move right away so as to avoid cutting myself on the stem of the glass which was crushed under my palm.. i don't know exactly how i did it.. i think i spun the glass over too quickly and slammed it down in one motion.. anyway- crazy things were afoot energy-wise.. went to the houston on 27th and park and had a scotch with matt while jason had a meeting with some cats from london and then we made it to cbgb's two hours before the band we wanted to see was playing.. tonight and today was a full full day.. and now i'm sitting here in the dark smoking and thinking about sinking.. and finishing my drinking. love all around to those who know. sorry you don't like me anymore... i'll take my kissing elsewhere. current mood: clean p.s. this cat in barcelona is working on my dj dates over there right now for jan 16-20. nice.. anyone got the hook up in france for 20th-25th? goodnight. it is lovely today. . going out in a moment to take it all in before winter falls down around me. walked home last night at like 2:45am and couldn't help but notice as i was walking down 5th avenue how deserted it is in brooklyn at dark.. and how weak the attempt and holiday decorations is.. half of the arches over the streets aren't even complete.. maybe they're up there working on that when nobody is looking and they're just not finished yet.. i do know that this weather is amazing.. i have my shorts on my bed ready to go. and walk i will! right after i have this tea and my allegra-d kicks in.. have so many chores to complete.. and i am psyched they're not going to be done in the rain or in the snow.. i got the funky funky flow- parapa the rappa. peace current mood: sunshine happiness and springtime everywhere also- listen our dj sets streaming on groovetech.com/halcyon tonight live from halcyon! or better yet, come to halcyon. 227 smith st. in brooklyn. f/g to bergen. i'll be the kid on the couch. i just had the best set of my life...!! the soundsystem at the brand-new groovejet in soho was absolutely amazing.. full digital surround sound system with the sickest mixer i have ever played on.. full eq's and cut switches on every one of the 6 channels.. plus 3 turntables and the clearest amps i've ever heard.. played 2 hours perfectly and the shit was sooooo tight.. and the club is gorgeous.. you would've been proud.. i had 3 scotches.. i needed to calm down- i was way too excited.. anyway. everyone was screaming and dancing and shit.. i am so happy.. all these kids were like "who are you??" i think i'm going to be a big dj... someday.. at least i know what i am doing.. i've played all over the world and all over nyc, but this is the most satisfying set i have ever played.. i know what kind of records i want to make now.. watch out! i am very very pleased with myself right now in case you couldn't tell.. jason's on a plane right now from LA (a red eye.. all night flight) so he's sleeping on the plane and then we're gonna hook up in the morning and hug .. i miss him dearly.. hopefully getting breakfast in the morning and then i have a full day planned in manhattan.. including a much-needed 2 hour massage .. i am really feeling alot better in general. things are good.. and my friend found my cell phone.. what a relief! right before i was about to go pick a new one up..! and to top it off i got an unexpected check for royalties (sales percentages) owed to me on my book.. and got paid for a gig from 2 weeks ago that i forgot about... i love feeling like its a present, instead of knowing i earned it a while ago.. but whatever.. its time to puff tuff and celebrate.. i love you. joel busy boy this month through february.. come see me! check out my schedule under "dj schedule" .. no excuses now.. ok? current mood: ear to ear grin big up to scott hardkiss who turned it out like nobody's business! haven't had anything to write. my arms are sore and my back is tight.. and i have a little to do to say the least.. long weekend.. i don't think i ever wanted it to stop.. at least thats how i acted.. now i'm paying the price.. bath tub city.. where's my maid? misplaced my phone.. probably in a taxi on my drunken way home sunday morning. someone's probably calling 1-900-mixalot or having a field day.. man.. i have found so many cell phones and wallets in my day i should be a lost and found department.. and i've returned every one of them.. its the shittiest feeling losing something.. but its all transient things anyway and i have the phone insured.. so i can replace it tomorrow.. today i'm staying put and nursing myself back to a healthy hue.. current mood: beaten up thinking of that someone who would be perfect to look at the moon with.. its literally bathing my room with its glow. i'm turning off the lights and sitting in my bed with my socks on. now thats emo. current mood: knowledgeable
current music: scandal- goodbye to you .
I wanted you far too much to ever let you go
You know you never got by "I feel it too"
And I guess I never could stand to lose
It's such a pity to say
I remember the good times baby now, and the bad times too
These last few weeks of holding on
The days are dull, the nights are long
Guess it's better to say
No need to talk about it
It's not the same
My love for you's just not the same
And my heart, and my heart
And my heart can't stand the strain
And my love, and my love
And my love won't stand the pain
And my heart, and my heart
And my heart can't stand the strain
And my love, and my love
And my love...
Yeah, I remember the good times baby now, and the bad times too
These last few weeks of holding on
The days are dull, the nights are long
Guess it's better to say
So long darling
Goodbye to you.: words: Joel Jordan 12/27/2001 01:13:22 AM
i'm alright,
standing in the dark and in the cold.
i couldn't love you,
couldn't lead you,
anymore..
i said goodbye to you tonight-
and i'm alright..: words: Joel Jordan 12/26/2001 02:42:50 AM
current music: gfs.: words: Joel Jordan 12/25/2001 01:07:06 PM
.: words: Joel Jordan 12/24/2001 01:29:03 AM
the strangest thing just happened before my sister and mother went to bed... they were wrapping presents (it looks like the north pole EXPLODED in the other room- too many gifts.. if thats possible..again, i will take a photo and post it and you can decide for yourself) anyway- they were wrapping presents, and you'd expect to hear some really seasonal kinda tunes.. instead 18 and life by skid row was blaring.. hilarious.. it kept his motor runnin' but it never kept him clean!
i'm sipping on a yuengling.. the oldest brewery in america.. thanks to philadelphia.. having a lovely dinner with some artists on my label and some great friends tomorrow night at my favourite vegetarian restaurant in the world, singapore, in philly.. yes.. its the jam.. anyway.. the ethernet cable is iffy at best on my powerbook. so the stupid thing keeps dropping the connection.. its getting annoying. i'll mess with it tomorrow i guess.. now i should stumble down the stairs to the basement game parlour (no bullshit- its all hooked up.. just missing some pinball machines and a beer meister.. but they do have karaoke on a wide screen tv.. crazy weird shit!) anyway. have a happy holiday if i don't speak to you. mine's off to a good start.. yawn! merry christmas. even to you.. yes, you... the one that deserves coal.
current music: skid row.: words: Joel Jordan 12/24/2001 01:22:11 AM
current music: jungle bells!.: words: Joel Jordan 12/20/2001 08:46:01 PM
current music: sade- cherish the day.: words: Joel Jordan 12/20/2001 04:14:01 AM
current music: outkast.: words: Joel Jordan 12/18/2001 08:00:31 PM
current music: hoobastank- falling in the dark.: words: Joel Jordan 12/18/2001 02:12:11 AM
current music: nothing.: words: Joel Jordan 12/17/2001 12:04:16 AM
current music: subatomic soundsystem.: words: Joel Jordan 12/15/2001 02:30:48 AM
.: words: Joel Jordan 12/11/2001 06:05:32 PM
current music: infommercial on tv in the other room.: words: Joel Jordan 12/11/2001 04:02:19 AM
current music: sky city- going.. gone..: words: Joel Jordan 12/9/2001 03:53:38 AM
current music: shakira- laundry service.: words: Joel Jordan 12/6/2001 01:32:05 PM
current music: teebee vs. brandy- "you don't know me".: words: Joel Jordan 12/5/2001 01:47:35 AM
current music: sprint pcs on-hold muzak.: words: Joel Jordan 12/3/2001 04:34:23 PM
current music: nightmares on wax- smoker's delight.: words: Joel Jordan 12/1/2001 01:18:20 AM
